Letting go

In the last year I have discovered the immense power of letting go. 

We only imagine we are in charge. 

More wonder has come into my world in the last year because I let go. 

I realised that the only thing I hadn't tried was "not trying". As soon as I tried that, the magic started. 

Wherever you are and whatever you're doing, if it isn't working or isn't feeling good, I highly recommend letting go, slowing down, asking for guidance and then say YES to whatever turns up. 

I said YES to something I never thought could be a "thing" and I am stunned and amazed and excited by the "thing" that is emerging! 

Here's a sneak peek - of something that has come to life in my world - as naturally as if I am breathing! - A year ago I could not have imagined this, I am still not quite sure how it's happened, but I am delighted beyond imagining that it has and crazily excited for where this is going to go! 

Stay tuned. 


Maybe let yourself surrender too? 

BIG love

Susie xox




Doing scary things


Doing scary things

I'm a fan of doing scary things. 

In fact, last week I decided to have a whole weekend of doing scary things. On Friday I took my mobile sound system and went to a busy town centre and played loud music and tried to get people to dance with me.

On Saturday I jumped off the 5m diving board at the swimming pool.

And on Sunday I recorded a video of myself to send to a woman I much admire to ask her if I could speak at a conference she is organising. 

They were all scary in different ways.

I've danced in public so many times that it holds no fear for me, but what I was scared of was "getting told off" and "getting in trouble". I knew I wasn't really allowed to play loud music and dance in the town centre and I was pretty sure I was going to get shutdown (which I did) but I still wanted to do it. I had amazing fun and a bunch of kids danced with me and people really enjoyed watching. Security did come after about twenty minutes, but they were lovely about it, and sorry that they had to stop me. And then the Customer Experience Manager came to see me and asked me if I would contact him so that he could hire me to come and do something officially. WOW!

The upshot? Lots of fun had. Didn't get in any trouble. Got an official invitation to come back and do it again. 


Jumping off the high dive was scary in a very different way. I was scared I was going to hurt myself. Scared I would somehow hit the water in a way that hurt. It didn't look that bad from the ground but when I was standing up there it felt like it was a mile high. 

I went to the edge and walked back from it at least six times.

I couldn't do it.

I climbed back down, stopping half-way to jump off the 3m board. That was easy. 

Once I was in the pool I was hit by a horrible sense of regret. I felt terrible for having bailed on doing the one thing I had come there to do.

Fear had been the boss of me. 

So back up I went. This time I didn't hesitate. I just went to the edge and jumped. Feeling that I had failed and bailed was far worse than what could happen if I jumped.

And the exhilaration of having done it? Ah.mazing! 

Dear Fear, you are NOT the boss of me! 


Making the video. Well, that was scary in yet another way. This time I would face my own judgement about myself on "film" - how I looked, how I sounded, what I said, the way I said it. And, I might not get a response - or not the the response I would like. I might face 'rejection'. 

I vowed I would do only one take and send whatever I recorded. 

And that's what I did. Except that the video wouldn't send. I tried every which way to make it go, but it would not. So I did a much shorter, second take, and before I could think twice, I hit send and off it went.

I haven't had a reply.

It doesn't matter even one tiny little bit.

What matters is that I did it! 


I did it!! I did the thing that I really wanted to do ... make a video! I want to make lots more so that I can create online courses so making and sending that first video was a big step in catching a new dream.

Doing scary things does not require you to not be scared. Doing scary things requires you to be scared, but "get on the horse anyway." That's courage. So says John Wayne. I agree.

Someone I love once told me that I know no fear. That's not true. I do feel fear. But I choose not to let it be the boss of me. And I make that choice again and again because there are so many things I want to do that I have never done before and every new thing comes with its own kind of scary. Some big, some small.

My best advice is to do the scary things that you want to do.

Not doing them, and regretting it is a far, far worse a fate. 

Doing things you want to, even though they're scary, will leave you feeling amazing and proud of yourself. 

And every scary thing you do will make you and your life bigger and better.

You're braver than you think. 

BIG love and BIG courage

Susie xox



dare to share you

My work in the last few days brought back memory of this extraordinary piece of emotion wrought into words. It was written by Oriah Mountain Dreamer late at night after a party. It was a stream of consciousness that flowed from her born from the frustration she felt at the superficial small talk of the evening. It changed the lives of so many who read it. Mine included. She did not plan to change the world or touch millions, she just expressed her feelings and then shared them. We may never know the impact we have in sharing who we are, but this is a wonderful example of how very important it is that we dare to do it. 

The Invitation 
by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know 
if you will risk 
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me
what planets are 
squaring your moon...
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you 
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.

It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know 
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know
if you can be alone 
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.


do scary things


do scary things

i'm an advocate of doing scary things.

when you do scary things you're living on the edge of your life.

ALIVE happens on the edge. 




find out why

i love this quote.

it is such a truth.

look for your why.

 it wants to be found. 

it is probably hiding in plain sight.